I don’t know where I stand in comedy today.
I think I have realized I am lazy.
When thinking about myself in terms of comedy and hanging out I haven’t put the work in being seen. I am doing the work on one hand, getting the sets in, improving my writing, and getting used to time and being comfortable but I am doing all of it in the dark. Everything else, I basically do it whenever it is convenient. And when I do come out it is doing the same shows.
I have to do better in this regard.
I want to ingrain the habit – the habit of being out and about in the city. I believe I have some material, so I think I have to start auditioning and getting myself out there. To put myself out on a limb. I have been scared regarding this, I wonder where it started. I have found myself getting comfortable, and being comfortable blocks process and progress.
To get myself out of this rut I find myself in, I have to figure out a game plan.
To be honest, this hasn’t just started – I have been starting to hang out a little more, shake some hands, add people on FB a little more, and put some more stuff out there, but I have to wonder, am I doing enough? Is this the pace I should be going at? Should I be going a lot harder – staying out until 2 AM if need be everyday until it becomes habit?
Either way, I will find out this summer, when I start auditioning more. I am going to shake some trees where ever I find them. I have to start leaning on old resources for stage time, and opening up old relationships.
Maybe I have been apprehensive this entire time for nothing? Maybe I should relax more. Maybe get the direction I need either way.
Who knows?
I have saxophone lessons coming. Still have to figure out a date, but once its done, I will be starting to play again.
I want to become better at the T principle that Da Vinci was doing. In short, the T Principle is to master one thing, but dip your hands into a bunch of others.
This creates an environment that trains all parts of your brain, and from there all your work increases.
It is because of that, I want to start hitting the saxophone again. I will do lessons once a week for an hour, and then practice for 30 minutes a day if I can, most likely before bed.
I feel like this is going to bring me a little more self discipline and a little more peace as well. I really miss playing music, just the ability to sort of get into a place and let my skill talk for me.
Comedy is fun, writing is fun, but music is a completely different beast. There is a sharpness to it that I love. There is a different reaction to someone that hears it. Its defined within the listener as well as the artist.
I am feeling a little apprehensive about it though. Frankly, it scares me. I am afraid to see where I am still as a player. I know I am in a bad way, because I don’t even remember how I used to read sheet music.
I guess having the teacher here would make that a lot easier. It is a guiding hand to help me get over some of my fears, and the instruction will round me back into shape.
And…
It would be nice to be able to seranade a chick or two as well, I must as admit. š
Enjoy the spring weather.
16/8 done
water not done
no reminder
no task list
3 things done.
From the desk of Adam Thomas 