BLOW IT UP. SELF DESTRUCT SEQUENCE IN 5…4…3..2…1
Oh I love to do it. Secretly, I think we all do.
When I think about all the self-destruction I’ve done in my life, it’s never good, but it comes with a few lessons. One thing I learned is that most of the time, it comes from me not being myself. Do it long enough, living as a lie becomes a powder keg, and within minutes of something bad happening, that keg explodes.
Nothing felt better than exploding in that moment.
That comes at a price. For all the fun I have subconsciously when I clear the decks, the pain afterwards is never worth it. Eventually, it makes me sick, and I decide to cut myself off from the people who support me, and I fall right into depression.
Self destruction is the kickoff sequence to a bunch of negative feedback loops.
Much of it stems from not being myself, forcing an issue, and not listening.
What sucks about the self-destruction sequence is that, like in James Bond Films, its difficult to stop, and generally is a waste of time. What I find far more fruitful, is to save what I can, and recover.
It is impossible to go to the past, so don’t try to. Just start recovery.
In recovery, it becomes really important to contact people, and get some love.
The time to figure out what happened is going to come, and trust me, there is no point in rushing the process. Remember, you just exploded, the wreckage is visible for miles, and there is no shortage of people who will let you off the hook.
In order to face up to recovery after that self destruction, resting is important, and the idea of not getting defensive is another one. Explosions happen. We aren’t robots, and we can’t expect to act like them. The only thing that works is to cut the feedback loop at the source, before it goes to far.
From the desk of Adam Thomas 