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Hello Failure

I don’t want to fail.

That has been a theme of mine since I could remember.

The problem is failure creates growth.

To become successful, you have to embrace the failure.

Like most bad things, I try to push it away. By pushing it away, I build a comfort zone. Comfort is the enemy of success.

Tough success spawns greatness. Easy wins are fuel. I have had enough fuel lately.

I audition at HA! tonight at midnight. I have heard it is a rough show, and I am scared. I have butterflies, and have had them since I woke up this morning.

This is where I need to be to expand. Hello failure.

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Sunday Funday

Sunday – I have to confront my feelings on something.

I wonder why I feel like I just can’t cut it. I am scared of failure.

My question is why? I have been told I should just stick to a day job, but, I am getting better at a lot of the things I am doing outside of it, including comedy,design, trading.

But I never want to put myself to the test. I want that to change – if I had to decide on a birthday present, it would be that.

So, in honor of it, the minute I get a third good joke, I am putting myself out there and I am going to see what happens. This includes writing, and trading and any other venture I want to accomplish.

Hopefully in a year, I will look back at this and smile.

Worst case scenario – I’ll look back at this and become more determined.
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Success doesn’t wait for those who wait for it.*

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Learning How to Write

Its interesting, as I started this experiment, one thing I’ve tried to do is see my skill in writing something freeform. By freeform, I mean there is no big statement in front of me that says TOPIC: WHY BLAH BLAH BLAH LEADS TO BLAH BLAH BLAH.

I’ve written like that for years, to the point it is easy for me. To finish something like that, all I need is the topic, google, some of the subject matter in front of me, and about an hour or so to put it together with my thoughts. For reviews, it took a little time to soak in the material, but once it was in there, it was a matter of following that very same process to churn out 650 – 1000 words on said topic. In short, it was writing by numbers, and I am pretty good at it.

Even with these links I had been putting up in the recent weeks, it was easy. Topic is ahead of me, and I jsut sat with the material for a bit, looked at it, added my own spit, and then deposited the link for the public to digest. Now, make no mistake, I enjoyed the links that I put here, and people like Seth Godin, James Altchuer, Chris Guillebeau and Tim Ferriss are people to look up too. They are powerful people with thier own point of view, tons of readers, and various reasons to write.

But I knew, as a person, I have to learn how to develop like they did. I can’t be a follower forever. I was inspired by their blogs to get off the snide and make something happen, which leads me to this post.

I have had a hard time writing these posts. Its hard to go out and discover those thoughts. Most people give up, or feel like they just aren’t cut out for it. Even writing that last sentence doesn’t mean I still won’t. But it does mean that I am trying. This has been a learning process, and it continues to be one. There is a lot of failure left to experience and I have to find out if I can take it without breaking.

The last few days the faucet was trickling, and it may still be for a while. I have decided to continue to spend time on this experiment to see if my posts get flushed out. Today was a gain for me, becuase this post started out in the same vein as the last few, and a lot more words came out. Hopefully there will be more like this in the future.

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Go Forth And Prosper

Got to say, I have been pretty vulnurable lately.

I’ve hung out with some great people, and all I could think is I don’t belong here. 

I have to explore this, and I don’t know how to proceed from here, but I can say I have a grip on the situation because I think I some perspective on it. 

Going to spend the weekend working on a few things. We will see how they come together in a few days.

Happy Friday, and hopefully, this weekend can create some magic for you.

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Dreams Wrapped In A Bow

I have been writing far too many posts lately as links.

Very little have been my personal view of things, or what i am thinking.

The next few days will be a test ( Today, Friday, M – Wed) of next week, of where I will start with a blank page, and simply just write what I feel. From there, maybe I go back to the links, or maybe I mix them in. No pictures, no links, just words.

Either way, it is going to be an adventure, and that is something that i have been missing creatively.

I had a dream about me walking a crowd full of people in a comedy club because of one heckler. I threw pudding on the owner for firing me. Then watched the olympics.

It came from a day of tying myself in a personal box?   You ever do that? Block your feelings, become emotionally unavailible?

That was interesting. It more than likely means nothing, but maybe I was telling myself something. Who knows. Any odd dreams lately?

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Risk, fear and worry

Risk, fear and worry

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