Pressure is on now.
I wrote 1000 words yesterday. That is the limit I want to set as an everyday exercise. I figure 1000 words would be able to get me over the hump as a writer, and allow me to start working the muscles that a writer should have.
I started this exercise because I figured that being a writer would help all parts of me life. Even if I didn’t publish anything, getting into the habit of producing one thing a day, regardless of how tired I was, or depressed, would help me become a better communicator and a better person.
It is working, I feel like I am making moves in a lot of places in my life. I am becoming more efficient in my time management, I have better jokes, and even my performance at work is getting better.
I figure if I just keep this up, stay with 1000 words a day, until it becomes normal, I will be able to produce things that will show my creativity, and also allow me to make the mistakes I need to make to be able to live on my own, and keep myself financially stable as a creative.
Met my limit in terms of spending money yesterday. I don’t like drinking as much anymore, especially since my tolerance is so high. I hate to say it, drinking at a bar isn’t fun unless you feel the buzz coming, and for me, I have to spend money to get that going.
I would like it for me to just relax and be able to drink one or two drinks like the rest of the world, but its becoming obvious to me that isn’t going to happen.
I wonder if it would just be best if I just stopped. No more drinking, no more burden on my wallet, just whatever I have.
I don’t know if I need to stop just cold turkey – no more drinking anything, even if it was free or anything like that. But it is something I am giving some serious thought to. I can’t just spend 50 bucks on liquor and walk out of the bar feeling like nothing happened.
What is the point f living if you don’t feel alive…so to speak. If I am not getting buzzed, why spend the money.
I have to breakdown what I do with my time. It seems like I could be maximizing what I do. I don’t quite know where my time is going, and that bothers me.
A lot of this has to do with two things I want to do on a daily basis, just to get those muscles going and built to the point they should be.
Those two things are programming (designing and building code) and reading. That 500 page thing is where I need to be when i decide to go it alone, if for no other reason, I see people are willing to put in that type of time into anything. Bringing up the 500 page thing to anyone, and they dismiss it. When the masses see to dismiss something that is more or less positive, it usually just means they don’t want to do the work to build the muscle to make the action possible.
Warren Buffet is a really intelligent man. He is a very wealthy man. He is even current, considering he is older than this brownstone I live in. I want to be there later in life. That seems to be the road to get to it.
Designing code is also something I really want to do. I have been slacking because I don’t do code school as much. I completed several courses, but I need to get finished with the rest. Then I need to build things.
One thing that needs to be done is Phil’s website. I also should start lending my services to other comedians, just for some quick bucks on the side, and to get some work out there into the world.
All money I get could just simply go to the comedian fund, and 300 bucks a head could really make that number jump.
I just have to add those two pieces to my day, like I do this writing. Three headed monster.
I want to start playing basketball on the weekends. To make that part of my day, to get some physical exercise in.
I need to get back into sports, and that will keep me fresh in the mornings, and get my brain working so my weekends aren’t quite wasted. I want o build that competitive edge and get my endurance up. Frankly, I am tired of walking up stairs in subways and breathing hard.
My size is becoming a problem. I do feel myself slipping on the 16/8 thing. Instead of eating healthier, I have been eating fast food in the 16/8 window, which doesn’t really help anything in terms of weight loss and being healthier.
The vegetable juice move has to happen sooner than later. I also need to start using more vegetables and pure meat into my meals. I have to cut down on the fried food. Yesterday I had fried catfish and mac and cheese. That has got to end.
In my head, I know these things are possible. I could even have a better build by the end of the summer if I work now and stop feeding myself bad and even stop drinking.
I want to be there, so I have to get there. Pretty simple when you think about it.
Been growing my hair for the last 2 months. I don’t quite know what do to with it though. I like it where it is. I like having that big bushy thing up there that grows uncontrollably.
But, what do I do with it after a certain point? Will it become an afro? Does it stay the way it is? I’ve grown my hair out before, and it ends up kind of super curled like it is now.
Who knows? It stays for now.
Do: Push Ups, Wrap Up, 3 Things, CPAP,16/8
Don’t: Meditation Vegetable Juice Water Thank You To Do
From the desk of Adam Thomas 