I get scared when I improve.
Every time I get a little better at something I get nervous. I feel like there is an expectation on my improvement, that I will owe something to someone because I improved.
The fear helps me understand where to go.
It sounds silly as I read it back, but it happens without fail when I try to make life better. Expectation scares me. The fear tries to stop me from doing the work, and thinking several steps ahead, I take a look at what stops me from doing the things I enjoy. But when I beat that fear, I find myself in a way better place than before.
There are two things that help me move forward:
1) When I try to take things one step at a time, this goes away and I realize I can do just one thing in front of me. This advice has helped me a ton. One step in front of the other can get you far if you let it.
2) When I get someone else involved – guilt pushes me a little further. I get to set up goal posts to guide my journey down the road. These feel like light posts, guiding me.
Knowing things help calm me down. Keeping the picture small and having defined points also help calm me down. Cutting through the fear helps me know that I can do it…