I cherish my mind.
Some times I take it for granted, I hate it. I don’t exercise it enough. I let it languish. I drink. I eat bad food. After all of that, I then always rely on it to bail me out of situations when it suits me.
It isn’t a great relationship.
Even so, every once in a while, I get reminded that the greatest thing anyone could ever ask for is clarity. The ability to take a look at the world and make rational decisions should not be taken for granted.
I saw a man without that clarity on the train. He was between cars, shaking, bouncing on the platform that connected the two cars together. I couldn’t quite call what he was doing, what was the point, and how it made his day better, but he looked like he had the time of his life doing it.
Ignorance is bliss I suppose. He seemed to love his life at the time, and he was making inroads to his enjoyment. Even so, I take a look at myself and think, maybe selfishly, that he cannot make much positive change in anyone’s life. I can. And that gift should not be ignored.
With that said…
It makes my stomach hurt saying this, but it points out another thought.
The other thing I was hoping for was for him not to fall down and ruin my day. That is the other side of the coin. We are still selfish. I didn’t want to give him help, I just wanted to make sure he didn’t effect my life. There is something barbaric about that, but also oddly human.
We all hate seeing ourselves in a selfish light, at least I know I do. With that said however, I feel like I should be more honest about it. So here I am.
I woke up on time today, or should I say, close to it. I was able to get most of my morning routines ready to go. I had time to do my push-ups, read all the things in my Feedly, and get most of this written, well, I hope all of it written.
My next goal is to push this maybe 15 minutes back,and go further in the mornings to increase the time of my workout, maybe read a little bit more, and add more things into a morning routine.
I must say though, it is a very good thing to be able to get up and see I am getting things done, and I won’t be late for work. It is also nice that this desk is turning more into a workshop and less into a huge paper weight. I don’t know how this will translate into my work, but I must say I feel more effective.
I hope I can keep this up.
In the meantime, I am trying to get Phil into the swing of things with habit. It seems he lives a very chaotic life. He doesn’t want to anymore, and I hope helping him build habits could make him more productive.
He seems earnest, and I would like to help make him better at what he does. Its one thing I can feel like I am doing right.
Making my way to the Comic Strip and The Laughing Devil next month. I am happy about finally putting this comedian stuff to the test. I have been building up my jokes for a few years, tightening them up, mining them for laughs. I am fairly confident I have been building something good in the meantime. Now it is time to put it to the test.
I want to be able to work as a comedian more in the city, and this will give me something I can hang my hat on. If I get in at bother of these clubs, I can then make the move to conquer more, once I get solidified. If I can knock out those tow, I would love to take on Stand Up NY and The Stand next.
Every thing in this game seems to be about building on passed success. I am passed at Carolines, but I have pretty much stopped sending in avails at this point (something I shouldn’t do, but it is shattering to sit through the process).I need to be in places that are more relevant to me, and getting some of the respect that comes with being a NYC club comic.
I have to stop taking the shots that are given to me and start forcing a few up. I got to see just how good I am. If I don’t, who knows how ill end up. I feel like it would mot likely be improving, but even so, most likely, I would be chasing my own tail.
I plan on doing this for a long time, so even if I fail, at least I will be on the radar for next time. I feel my act is ready for the limelight, so I might as well go and get some things for me.
I may be a non profit board member for the literacy program in Harlem. I got asked yesterday, and I would love to do it. I want to increase my service to the community, throw something on the resume that makes me look good for other companies,and make me a lot easier to sell at work.
The needs may be a bit selfish on this one, but I also would love to help the kids around Harlem read.Literacy is something that people seem to think is not important.
With the internet, twitter and Facebook, I think being able to sit down and decipher anything with the deep focus a good book requires is the linchpin skill that will separate the wheat from the chaff. It will increase critical thinking skills, it will make them more worldly, increase the insight into language and improve the imagination.
Sounds like a win win to me.
Do: CPAP /Pushups /3 Things/ Wrap Up
Don’t: 16/8 water/vegetable juice/thank you/ to do / meditation
From the desk of Adam Thomas 