Paul Mooney – From the desk of Adam Thomas

I got excited yesterday.

I realized at my pace, I am close to writing 10,000 words a month on this blog. I have been steadily increasing the amount of words I write per day, going from 100 to 200 to 300 and now almost 400 per post.

The growth has been organic, which is something I am proud of. I haven’t really been pushing to write more, it is something that has just flowed out of me. And for that I am thankful.

I just only hope I have the wisdom to keep it up. Everyday that I write is another chance to explore the options of the day ahead of me. Everyday I write I have a chance to bring something new to the world. And, everyday I write, I exercise the part of my brain that has long gone dormant – the ability to communicate.

I have felt lately( over the last 2 years almost) that I haven’t been able to say things as crisply as I had been before. People say I am well cpoken – but there is a level I felt I was at, where ideas were able to flow out like wine…almost.

Was I professional? No, but I had the ability to get to point and make them, without over thinking. I had become a parrot lately. Where I used to be able to talk about myself, I had changed into someone who just parroted ideas. These were things i thought about, but even so, I couldn’t quite put them in my own words to get them out.

I think a lot of this habit building stuff has helped – I would like to think that I can do more. Better sleep has helped. Soon I will introduce eating better, meditation, and organization into my life ( Still working on the organization), and through that maybe I improve.

I wrote that I was thankful for improvement last night. I want a growth mindset, and I think I am getting there.

I listened to an interview last night about the Paul Mooney incident, which proved my suspicions. In it he says he was set up – He didn’t say that white people deserved to be blown up, he was talking about Americans and terrorism – he said our chickens have come home to roost.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_co03n_hO-Q

He sounds a little frazzled in the video – and I can feel why, he knows they are out to get him. It is very easy to sound crazy when you feel like crazy things are happening.

I can believe this side of events more so than the other side because I know Mooney’s comedy – never has he wished death or people to be blown up, that seemed way to vulgar for him.

I also know the people who opened for him, I would like some verification, but I feel like they wouldn’t step up to defend him because they are young in their careers. A club is important because where else will they be booked?

It is scary how they try to murder free speech. If I ever get to that level – I wonder how my words can be misconstrued.

3 Things Done
Drunk Water
16/8 Completed

No – Todo Morning or Todo Evening.

Android To Do Fear

I like that I have no where to go with this blog.

It gives me freedom to go where I please.

And that is where today’s post comes from. I have a fear of to-do lists.

I really would like to add them to my daily routine – both day and night, but I get apprehensive when it happens.

My nervousness stems from the fact that I will fail on things I ut on the list.

Its difficult to sit and look at failure. It stares back at you, no matter how long you look. It knows your insecurities, and helps create more. It is a battle you know you will lose – no matter how you try to avoid it.

And yet still I do. Like my depression, I try to hide from it. It I don’t make note of it, it doesn’t exist.

It doesn’t work, hasn’t for my lifespan of 26 years, but still I try to shoehorn it through my habits.

I am going to start making my todo lists at night this week. Ill see where it gets me.

I reset my android phone last night, and I don’t know how I should feel on that.

It was necessary – but I don’t want to lose what I had. Almost feels like a relationship I am losing. Don’t want to get rid of it. I don’t think I will, but this phone that I have now is really annoying me.

It almost makes me want to transfer over to Sprint , just to get my hands on the Galaxy IV. That would mean I will be leaving Verizon as well.

Who knows where that can go.

Paul Mooney got fired for bringing up Boston, saying they had it coming. I am proud he brought it up. I may not agree —- I don’t even know where he was going with it, but I agree with his right to work it out.

He is fearless. That’s where I want to be. I almost got mad at my roommate for not being completely on board – he seemed a little scared.
I can’t be mad at someone for keeping their truth sacred. He has a path as do I.

16/8 Done. 8 Second Water. 3Things Done.