Tag: worth

[bctt tweet=”We decide our worth, not anyone else. “]

Our worth comes from ourselves – internally, affected by outside forces. I think it is important to say that we aren’t robots, and it is impossible to say the things that happen around us aren’t meant to disturb us but ultimately, how we feel comes from our internal systems.

So it is in our best interest to take an interest and investigate ourselves.

Last night, I felt this pang of awfulness. It started when I was in the office, tipped off by a nasty comment that went my way.

I find external factors are like musical notes, if played in a random order, they come off as noise. But, when played in the right order in the right pitch, it can move you.

I found this comment extremely moving.

The great thing about music is doesn’t need to steep itself in facts, just feeling. Unfortunately, external comments are the same, and unlike music, it isn’t always great.

That comment hurt and my mood suffocated me. All I wanted to do was leave and sit and wallow. Not very productive, but the depressive mind can play that type of game with you.

So, my depressive mind had the directive to get home and wallow. I followed the wallow playbook – Netflix, fast food, and fatigue on the couch, down to a tee. I put on a Richard Pryor documentary and started getting as distracted as possible (hello phone). I assumed I would get into a food coma and put my head down and eventually, move over to my bed and another day.

Luckily, as I finished the documentary, I saw my to-do list (always good to have one lying around) and decided to do one thing.

[bctt tweet=”I find external factors are like musical notes, if played in a random order, they come off as noise. “]

Since I had a to-do list ready to go, I suddenly had purpose. Cutting off all stimulation gave me time to focus (goodbye phone). As I started taking things off my list, I got ideas, which then made me happier. Those ideas turned into quick wins that got the ball moving forward.

By feeling useful, I changed the “music” in my head, and got another reminder that the internal engine moves by action and purpose. We decide our worth, not anyone else.